March 9, 2005

• Taking a break from cleaning and having a cigarette.

  
  

   

  
  

  I’m sitting here on my floor trying to clean the last of my junk.  It’s really frustrating me.  Where am I going to put everything when there’s nothing to put anything in?  Like bookshelf, desk, drawers. I feel like shoving everything in the closet, close it, and be done.  Obviously I can’t do that.  But I feel like it though.  So I’m going to take a break and post something.

  
  

   

  
  

  Irvine Boy has a test next Monday so this whole week he’ll be studying for it after work.  He told me he’s stressed and tired.  Which I’m sure, because doing well on this test is extremely important.  And with both work and school, it’s challenging and strenuous.  Having a girlfriend in the middle of all this makes it a bit harder too.  Hopefully I can make it as easy for him as I can.  Don’t need to worry about me.  I’ll just be here still cleaning up and organizing all my things after he aces this test.   I wonder if he’s feeling irritated as well.  Usually when I’m stressed I feel irritated at most people and things.

  
  

   

  
  

  I was thinking he might come over tonight after his studies, but I just got off the phone with him and he said he’s just going to stay home tonight.  Yeah, I’m a little disappointed.  It’s okay though.  Feeling disappointed was just a natural reaction.  Of course I understand, and I want him to be where it’ll help him unwind and be able to get more rest.  I told him maybe it’s because we do so much everyday.  Work, school, I have to clean up, party on the weekends, and hang out at the beach, worrying about what’s for dinner when we eat together, all the driving around to each other’s place, and sleeping late on top of it all.  It doesn’t normally feel like a lot, but I think these things subconsciously add to the stress too.

  
  

   

  
  

  Okay, back to cleaning.

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