Today was my first day doing P90x.  Chest and Back + Ab Ripper.  And boy it was rough.  I felt really HARDCORE!  Funny thing though is that I could only do 1/10 of what Tony and his gang was doing on the dvd.  Then by the time I got to the ab ripper, I could barely lift my limbs, let alone climing up my leg, turning side to side with legs in the air… pppfff, yeah right!  I wanted to throw up at the end of the workout.  Yup.  But nonetheless, I still felt great afterwards!  Tomorrow is plyometrics at 6:00 AM.  I’m determined to do the 90 days!

 

I’ll be taking my BEFORE pictures tonight; will keep progress pictures.

 

I’m also going to follow their diet and eat CLEAN.  So for breakfast today I had:

 

1 Cup – 1% milk

3 scrambled egg whites w/ a little salt, pepper, and butter spray

3 oz. of skinless chicken breast

 

Lunch:

 

2 Cups lettuce

3 oz chicken breast

2 Tablespoon fat free balsamic dressing

Dinner will be:

 

3 oz salmon

1 cup – brown rice

 

Snack is:

 

1 medium banana

3 oz. chicken breast

3 scrambled egg whites w/ a little salt, pepper, and butter spray

 

With that schedule I’m still short 600 – 800 calories.  I may add in a protein shake right when I get home from work, or maybe some nuts.  Not sure.  We’ll see.

 

  

  

Breakfast:

Milk, 1%, 1 cup 110 12 2 8 Chicken Breast, no skin, 3 ounces 94 0 1 20 Egg White, 3 serving 51 1 0 11

Breakfast TOTALS: 255 13 4 39

Lunch:

Romaine Lettuce (salad), 2 cup, shredded 16 3 0 2 Chicken Breast, no skin, 3 ounces 94 0 1 20

Lunch TOTALS: 109 3 1 21

Dinner:

Atlantic Salmon (fish), 3 oz 155 0 7 22 Brown Rice, medium grain, 1 cup 218 46 2 5

Dinner TOTALS: 373 46 9 26

Snack:

Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long) 109 28 1 1 Milk, 1%, 8 fl oz 110 12 2 8 Egg white, 3 serving 51 1 0 15 Chicken Breast, no skin, 3 ounces 94 0 1 20

Snack TOTALS: 363 41 4 44

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			CALORIES	CARBS	FAT	PROTEIN
			1,100	102	18	130
			1,600 - 1,800
			500 - 700

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I ran into one of my mom's friend at Chino Hills 99 Ranch yesterday....    And the first thing she said to me was, "OH! You're pregnant again!"                    I replied, "No.  I'm not.  I'm just fat."

Okay, I think that was a sign I should really get serious about getting back in shape.

 

Waiting for Caleb to wake up from his nap, then it's off to the market with him in the baby Bjorn to pick out some healthy eating for the coming week.  May sneak in some fun food for Seb..... ok for me too; we'll see.

I love doing mommy stuff when I have a day to myself; taking care of Caleb, grocery shopping.

Beverly, I think I'll try making the artichoke dip tonight. 

 

First week weigh-in; I lost 2.5 pounds!  Ok, it's not a lot BUT it is a start.  Weight watchers is working out pretty well.  It’s really similar to counting calories, except easier. 

 

On Thursday I had my birthday dinner at Rokuan; a Japanese restaurant really close to home.  My dad treated.  I picked Japanese because it’s yummy, it’s lower in calories compared to steak and such, and it’s my favorite.

 

Birthdays get better every year.  Though this year I didn’t get to go out and party like I did all the previous years, but it’s the one year I really do feel content and happy with where I’m at.  When it came time to blow out the candles and make my birthday wish, I really couldn’t think of anything except for my mother to start feeling better soon.

 

For my birthday, Seb wrote me a beautiful birthday card and got me the iPad!  I was really surprised when I opened my gift, because I wasn’t expecting anything like it.  With the house, baby care cost, nanny’s salary, … we’ve really been good about our spending.  But since he did get it for me, it would be rude to not accept.     I really do love it though.

 

Okay, off to enjoy my Sunday afternoon…

 

I’m finally going to start getting back into the gym and losing all my baby fat.  Eating better is must, so it’s back to counting calories and logging down what I eat everyday.  I’m aiming for minimum 4 days at the gym Mon – Thurs mornings.  If I’m able to, I want to squeeze in Fridays as well.  But we’ll see how four days goes first; it’s not an easy task with work, family, grocery shopping, baby care, and now getting back into shape.

 

So to get the ball rolling, I need to get myself to bed early and on time.  I’m such a night owl.  I hate going to bed, and I love staying up late.  It’s the only time I feel like I have some time to myself.  But I guess if I change my mentality; waking up early is time to myself too.

 

Going to wash up now, watch a show on my DVR, and lights off by 11pm. 

 

Night-night, Xanga World.

 

 

Seems like I don’t update enough no matter how many times I keep saying I’m going to start getting back into Xanga updates.

I hope everyone is doing well out there.

Caleb has started sleeping in his own room; and what a difference it makes, for both him and me! He sleeps for longer stretches at a time now. And I don’t feel uneasy he’s going to wake up every time the blanket ruffles. At first I felt like it’s just so sad this little guy is sleeping down the hall all by himself, but I decided to give it a try anyway. First night was kind of hard for me. But after that, he’s been sleeping on his own (with the baby monitor in our room of course), and it’s turned out wonderful for all of us.

Mom got discharged from the hospital a 3^rd time last week. Still going back for checkups every few days. Tomorrow is another checkup. We’re gonna head out at 5am. I’m really hoping there will be improvements on her test results.

Looking forward to the weekend. If all is well with Mom, I have a 3 year old birthday party to go to, and maybe I’ll take my mom out for dinner after if she’s up for it.

Time for bed, need to wake up early.

Nite nite, all.

 

 

Mom is back in the hospital again since Wednesday.

 

I don’t really know what it is I feel; it’s a mix of feeling scared; I guess for me and for her.  I can’t pinpoint exactly what I’m scared of.  Or maybe I’m just scared to admit what I’m scared of.  I know she’s wondering the same things as I am, but tries not to show it.  It hurts me to know she has feelings she’s keeping to herself because she doesn’t want me to worry for her.  I don’t really know what to do, except spend time with her and not let her face this alone.

 

I left the hospital at 10:00pm today.  I took a little nap there today when I couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer.  I felt so burnt out.  I was much better after the two hour nap.  We didn’t do much; I sat around the hospital room while she laid in bed.  We also walked down the corridor a couple of times because she just wanted to get out of the room.  We walked to the elevator and just sat in the chairs in front of it, she held my hand and leaned on my shoulder.  At that time I just felt this overpowering need to protect her, but I feel so helpless.

 

Even though I know there’s not much I can do to change her situation.  I keep asking myself what I can do to comfort her.  After having Caleb, I found myself giving him comfort by holding him close and telling him over and over again, it’ll be okay, I’m here.  And these days, the thing that helps me find peace and my balance is when he looks back at me, smiles, and grabs my finger with his whole hand; his touch.  So I took those two thoughts, and put my arm around Mom and held her close as we walked down the hall.

 

It’s late.  Heading off to bed now.

 

 

Bullets.

• My mom went into the ER this past Wednesday.
• Been spending everyday there to keep her company.  Though I didn't enjoy the location, but I enjoyed the time spent with her.

.... too tired.  That's all I can think of right now.  Update tomorrow.

 

Finally Friday!

 

First two days back at work… went pretty well.  Long days again.  So glad the weekend is here.  Went on an appointment after work today in Cerritos.  Got home finally at 9pm.  But I did close a case which means money, and I need a lot of that these days.

 

I plan on starting my gym routine again.  Not sure how I’m going to fit everything in my day.  But I am.

 

Ok, too tired to write too much …

 

Seb and I are going to watch a dvd,… that is if he stops playing his playstation.

 

 

So...

Quick post, cause I'm tired.

Today's my mom's birthday.  We went hung out a bit and went out to dinner together.  It's been on my mind for a while, but it's breaking my heart to see her not feeling well for quite some time now.  Compared to last year, there's no other way to put it, but she looks so tired and weak.  It makes me sad because I don't know what I can do to make her feel better.

Okay, going to bed.