Detour of the day...

 

Didn’t get my hair trimmed today after all.  I called my stylist, but he was already booked for the rest of the day.  So I scheduled my trim for tomorrow at 1:00pm.

 

I did go to Brea Mall though.  I was there for less than 5 minutes before I got sucked into one of the kiosks for them to sell me something.  One hour later, I walked away with my hair looking like I was struck by lighting and a damn curling iron.

 

Home relaxing on our green sofa with Seb and watching Lost.

 

A personal day...

 

Getting ready to head out.  Finished everything I needed to this morning.  Paperwork filled and sent out, made all my calls, and returned some work emails.  YES.

 

I’m gonna try a new way of doing things; which is not lagging.  Once I think of it, just get to it and do it.  Instead of sitting around and procrastinating.  I wonder if that’ll help get more things done in the day.  

So, now I’m going to go wash up, get dressed, head out and get my hair trimmed, and then go to Brea mall.

 

Have to remember to bring my pump.

 

Aiya, I’m looking forward to the day I don’t have to lug around my pump, blue ice, and milk bag.  Milk bag.  Hahahaha.

 

 

If Only I Could Just Work Half Day

 

So I’m easing myself back into work from my maternity leave.  Today was my first day back at the office.  But I’m only going to for half days Monday through Wednesday, and then starting from Thursday I’ll be back to work full time.  I can’t remember who gave me the idea, but they said I should start work full time on a Thursday.  That way, I have the two days to get adjusted and then the weekend will be here.  Sounded like a pretty good idea to me.  So much shit to do now that I’m back.  Not sure where to start.  But I do know I’m eager to start.  This year is going to be a good year.  I just know it.  I can feel it.  Feel it in my bones!

 

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Brought my breast pump to work today and pumped in the bathroom.  I put down a toilet seat cover and just sat there pumping away.  With a manual pump.  I know, sounds crazy I’m using a manual pump.  But I’m using the Avent one, and let me just say, this $26 one works way better than the $280 Madela one.  I’ve been so friggin frustrated with the Madela starting from day one!  Love this Avent pump.  I feel like I need to buy one for backup in case this one breaks.  Cause Amazon is cheaper.  Baby’s R Us sells it for $44 I think.  Rip off.

 

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Anyway, I was pumping in the stall, and this pump makes the craziest squeaking sound.  I few ladies came in to use the stall next to me.  I wonder what they were thinking when they heard all the weird noise coming from my stall.  I didn’t care.  I just kept pumping, though I didn’t want anyone to know it was me.  So for a moment, I was concerned if whoever it was next door would recognize my shoe from underneath.  While there’s nothing wrong with pumping at work.  It just feels strange letting someone know I’m in there with some weird contraption sucking milk out of my breast.

 

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What else did I do today?  Hmm..  Oh, went to Costco to return some pants I got for my mom that were the wrong size.  Afterwards went to Target to get Caleb some infant fever medicine in case anything spikes from his vaccine this morning. 

 

Omg I’m so tired.  Drained.  I think it’s from all the pumping.

 

Tomorrow I just have to go over some accounts, send out some paperwork, and make a few phone calls.  I think I’ll be free in the afternoon so maybe I’ll go get my hair trimmed.

 

Okay.  Must.  Go.  Sleep.  Now. 

 

Good night.

 

Pumping again in 2 hours.

 

 

 Serenity...

...the touch of a baby when they grab onto your finger with their whole hand.

My world falls into a hush so serene.  Time just kind of stands still...

 

 

Happy 2010, everyone! We definitely had a nice little vacation. Seb took the last 2 weeks of the year off to spend with the family. His parents, brother, and brother’s fiance were here for the New Year’s weekend. It was really nice to spend time with everyone, we even had a small engagement party for his brother, Jon, and the bride-to-be, Joon.

The postpartum nanny officially left on 11/28/2009. But I did get some help from my MIL during the time she was here for the weekend. Now I know what a luxury it is to have someone help while I catch up on some much needed sleep.

Now we’re back on our own. Seb has gone back to work. So I try not waking him up in the middle of the night for anything, which makes my days kinda crazy. Today I was so sleepy, I passed out from 4pm to 8:45pm while Caleb was napping too. I’m taking another month off from work, till end of January. So I really want to enjoy the time I have left with Caleb staying at home all day.

For Christmas we did our gift exchange on Christmas morning. I got Seb a pair of EMU house slippers, they’re SO comfortable! And for his big gift, I got him a 32 gig iPOD Touch. He got me a couple of new frames for our family photo taken at an upcoming Disneyland trip with the little one. And for my big gift, he got us both annual passports to Disneyland for 2010. We usually get annual passports every year, except last year since I was pregnant with Caleb, and wasn’t really up for anything. But this year, once Caleb is a little older, we’ll be able to put him in a stroller and walk around in the park. Can’t wait.

Caleb has one for feeding for the night at 1:15am, then hopefully he’ll sleep till 6am before waking up for the next feeding. He started sleeping longer through the night starting at 5 weeks. One morning I woke up and was surprised the sun was out, it was 8am. I went over to the crib, and the little rascal was still sleeping! Hope this keeps up till his next growth spurt.

 

 My mom feeding Caleb at Garden Cafe...

 

I love looking at him while he's sleeping...

 

 

Getting ready to head out...

 

 

Daddy carrying with the baby bjorn... 

 

 

The newly engaged couple...Jon & Joon.  Names are a

perfect match too!

 

 

Taking a walk at focus while Caleb sleeps in the stroller...

 

 

A closer look...

 

 

Babies really do love being swaddled!

 

 

Relaxing after a feeding...

 

 

　

　

Merry Christmas~!  Counting down the days till the new year begins. 

We're going to have Lisa till the 28th.  After that I'm gonna be all on my own at night. 

 

Caleb is just a little over two weeks now. I watch him every day and I can’t get over how different he looks every time I look at him. I’m getting better at handling him, changing his diapers, and feeding. The first few days, every time I picked him up, I was so afraid I would hurt him. But now I can move him around with ease, and he seems to be more comfortable too. He’s also back to sleeping four hours at night, from 12am to 4am. Thank goodness.

But even with the crazy schedule Caleb puts me on, I’m just enjoying every moment I get to spend with him. Every time he looks up at me, and I look into his eyes, I can feel my heart fill up with love for him. There’s so much love, I feel like I can’t contain it all. And then I get scared. I’m scared that one day I can’t always be by his side to protect him. I know he must learn to be independent and self sufficient. It’s for his own good. But for now, he’s my little boy.

I’m getting better at BF-ing. Though I’m still a little concerned about the amount of milk I’m producing. I’m trying to feed and pump in between feedings to help produce more. But it’s still not enough that I have to supplement with formula. Hopefully I’ll be producing enough to store some before I go back to work end of January.

And tonight is date night! Seb and I are going to watch the 7pm showing of Avatar. Since we still have Lisa, our postpartum nanny, we are taking advantage of it! After she leaves, it won’t be as easy for us to slip away and catch a movie just like that; cause we have a little guy who depends on us now. So I’m really looking forward to this evening, though my mom would probably kill me if she knew I’m out at the theaters while still in my 1^st month after delivery. But I’ll be home right after. I promise.

 

OMG.  Our little nugget would NOT sleep last night.  He woke up every two hours or so.  And it took half an hour to make him sleepy again.  Then he'd wake up two hours later again.  Why is he so awake?  I fed him, burped him, and changed him.  Finally right now he's letting me put him down in his crib.  Pleeeease go to sleep, Baby.

 

Each night is getting better. The first few nights, I think I dozed off a couple of times feeding Caleb. I was so burnt out. Since catching up a little on rest, I’m more alert during nighttime feedings.

Caleb just ate at 1:30pm, now he’s napping. Next feeding will be at 4:00pm. Till then I have some time to relax and look over some work stuff on the computer.

 

Caleb is 11 days old now. The past week has been quite interesting and I think I’ve learned a lot as far as what some of his cries mean, how much he needs to eat, why he won’t sleep. I know that’s not the end of it. I’m barely brushing the surface. But it’s a start.

I am catching up on more sleep, as my mom was really generous and helped me hire someone to take care of me and Caleb for the postpartum month. The postpartum nanny cooks 5 meals for me daily and also take cares of Caleb 24 hours. During the night, she will bring him to me to feed and then help me put him to bed so I can get some much needed rest. She has a lot of experience with newborns, so it’s really making my transition into mommy hood a lot easier. I’m SO grateful to have someone help me. Even with help I feel exhausted at times, I can’t imagine if I was doing this on my own, being a new mother and not really knowing WHAT I’m doing.

But then again, as tired as I am, I love taking care of him. I feel so much love every time I look into his face. And I’m just amazed this little guy is a part of me and Seb.

It’s almost time for his 4:00pm feeding. So I’m off to wake the little munchkin. Here are a few pictures from the last few days.

 

 

Food nanny makes...